Amber - Break Over

 Hello this is the start of a new week.  I'm getting the Christmas itch really bad but I still intend to do basically the same goals for right now.  I am changing it a little bit.  I am doing my energy healing every day and since my study last week I've decided to add one thing as part of it.  While reading I came across the idea that you need an ideal to work for and then you need to focus on it.  The more you focus and put effort into it then the more successful you are at reaching it.  So as part of my healing I'm going to start the day with visualizing the thing I'm after.  Also I'm going to reorder the goals so that they are in chronological order for the day.  It's been bugging me that the first goal happens at night and later ones happen earlier. 

1. Set intentions for the day, included in prayer.

2. Visualize the thing I'm working towards.

3. I exercise at some point in the day.

4. 8:30 I say my repentance prayer.

5. I make a plan and prepare for the next day.

Monday:

* In Ether chapter one Jared asks his brother to pray for him.  He has such confidence in him and the brother of Jared has such confidence in his prayers to the Lord that it inspires me.  I have confidence in the Lord that he will answer my prayers no matter what.  However I don't have the same confidence in me.  I'm not so sure that I'm always asking for the right thing.  I would like to have that confidence that the brother of Jared has.  To know that the things you pray for are the right things would be amazing.  I suppose it's a matter of recognizing and listening to the spirit.

• Since I didn't decide exactly what I was going to do this week until today then I didn't get goals one and three done.
• I did visualize what I want
• I heard that alarm but again didn't react!  So annoying what is it with me in the evening.  I shut off my brain and apparently everything else too!  This means no prayer, also I didn't get a plan made.

Tuesday:

* Today I studied Ether 2 and there was a scripture right near the front that caught my eye.  Verse 7 tells that the Lord wouldn't let them stop after the sea in the wilderness.  I don't recall hearing about this sea but it must have been a place they liked because they weren't allowed to stop.  This is the way of things.  We find something we like and think is good for us.  Usually it is something better than we have and often something we have been wanting.  However, the Lord tells us to move on.  We are disappointed and sometimes refuse to listen.  What we don't see is what the Lord sees.  He knows there is something even better for us, something we would like more if only we could see it.  Unfortunately for us sometimes there are greater challenges before we can get there and it seems like we have made a mistake in following the Lord's counsel.  We left something good and now we are suffering.  It is important at this point to have faith in the Lord, he knows what he is doing and where we are going.  Just keep hanging on and soon you will see it too.

• Ok first fail of the day, I made a short plan when I woke up but didn't set actual intentions.  Despite that Grandma and I have a had a marvelous day.
• I had a great visualization for what I'm aiming for.
• Alas no exercise, I woke up too late to do early yoga and we have been busy all day.
• I didn't do any other goals today.

Wednesday:

* Unfortunately I don't have a thought today.  I read but I didn't seem to get anything in particular.  Actually my cycle started today and I've been groggy and slow all day.  Also mom came today so I was also distracted.

• No intentions
• I tried to visualize in the morning but I confess I fell asleep so not even that one today.
• No exercise for sure today.
• No prayer or prep either.

Thursday:

* I found my thought while reading Ether 3.  This is the chapter where the brother of Jared sees the finger of the Lord.  Jesus says that every man was made in his image.  Imagine if we were made differently from God.  How could we relate to him.  The fact that he has experienced some of the same things we have means to me that he knows what he is talking about.  He knows how to overcome weaknesses and how to get through trials.  I can trust what he says because he has been there and passed through it all.  He knows what it's like and he knows how to do do it.

• No intentions again, I'm still a bit out of it but I'm better than yesterday.  In fact today, due to my energy healing work of the day, I feel great emotionally and mentally.  Just low on energy and in pain.
• I also didn't visualize today.
• Also no way I'm up for exercise today.
• I'm so annoyed right now.  I didn't say my prayer or prep.  I have to do it at my alarm or I'm just too tired to do it when I go to bed.  I was watching a movie with grandpa and didn't want to stop.  This is getting really aggravating!
• One good note is that I finally finished my scissors case.  Here is a picture I mashed together of three views of the same item.
  
  
  

Friday:

* Today I read Ether 4 and while reading came across many scriptures that basically said that if you believe then you will be shown more like the brother of Jared was and if you disbelieve then you will be shown nothing more.  I personally don't feel the need right now to know a lot more right now.  I'm still trying to learn the stuff I already know.  Should I have that desire right now, is there something wrong with not wanting more right now?

• My intentions today are to finish and print my paperdoll ballgowns.  I have three pages worth and only one complete.  I also want to have a good day with grandma.  She is actually doing pretty well this morning.
• I didn't visualize today.
• Again no exercise.
• Alas I didn't say my prayer or prepare for the next day.
• My intentions worked out pretty well.  Grandma did very well today and it was a good day for me.  I also completed the three pages of paperdoll ballgowns though I had printer problems so I didn't get them printed.  It actually took me several hours to complete.  I had to learn how to resize photos so they matched eachother so I could combine things from different pictures.  I also had to learn how to use Gimp and work with layers.  I had to learn how to delete a background from a simple line drawing and how to delete all colors except one.  Then I had to learn how to outline the edges.  However I did it all and here are the completed images, from pencil drawings to digital dolls ready to be printed.  Just a note I didn't draw the doll or the shoes but I did draw all of the dresses.
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  
  

Saturday:

* I read about personal revelation today.  I don't have a particular quote today but the study really made me think more about how my prayers and my own revelation is going.  Not as well as I'd like for sure so I feel a renewed energy to get that evening repentance prayer in.  It is extremely important to have real conversations with God and to develop that relationship as well as repenting every day.  Also this will bring the spirit more into your life and I could use more of that.

• My day's intentions are to print those dresses, cut out and sew a medieval shirt for Chad (I'm learning to sew things by practicing with all of the patterns I've accumulated over the years and Chad is my male model, I've not really had much practice on men).  I also want to go through all of Grandma's Christmas stuff today.
• I did my visualizing today and it feels good.
• For exercise Grandma and I went for a walk, it looked nice and sunny and the wind looked mild but let me tell you it was pretty cold so we turned around about 7 mins down the road.  So the walk was pretty short but it is good for her.
• I did say my prayer today!  I also planned for the next day.
• Ok I finally printed those dresses.  It was a little bit of a pain because the printer itself was the problem and I had to use a different program to print them but that meant I had to test print them all at least once before I got it right. I was also able to cut out the shirt but it was so late by then that I was too tired to go down and sew the pieces together.  Also I never got to the Christmas stuff.

Sunday:

* I read all of the verses and references in Ether 5.  It was tiny but I was impressed with the idea of sharing what you know.  God gathers witnesses and then they are required to share what he has shown to them.  In my own life I am a witness of many truths and miracles.  I've not thought a whole lot about it but it seems that once you are given something from God he asks you to share it with others.  It doesn't say you are required to change people or convince them that you are right but only that you bear testimony of what you have seen/experienced.

• My intentions today are to have a good sabbath day in which I keep it holy and to have a good church meeting.
• I didn't visualize.
• I said half a prayer as I went to bed and I partially planned for tomorrow.

Well I'm getting a few things done but I think I might be focusing enough on my other goals that it is distracting from these on here.  Such as my energy healing, though that is becoming such a habit that it might be pointless to add it to the goal list.  My main goal has actually been to get back to the temple/have a temple recommend.  I don't know how many of you know but I haven't had one for a good while now and I'm getting super close!  It's very exciting and it has been the main focus of my goal power.  Some of these goals have been in support of that main goal but I haven't been up for sharing my progress on that goal so it's never made it's appearance here.  So I am definitely making progress you just don't see it here.  Also I have a list of things I do in my free time that I might be spending too much effort on.  I need to put that evening prayer above my free time in the evening.  Hmm might have to do some energy clearing on that because the evening prayer is huge for my main goal of getting back to the temple.  Ok time for a new post.