Amber - What is the point?

 I know last week I was hopeful again but it quickly took a nose dive.  To be honest it has actually been nearly a week since I've written anything.  I kind of broke down this week when I was faced with writing and realized I didn't want to do it anymore.  The purpose of writing here was to have some place where I would get some accountability.  Someone is going to see it so that gave me enough motivation to keep going.  It's more sustainable than talking to someone live because you don't have to set up a time.  It's also less disappointing then texting someone because either way you rarely get a response but since a post is to anyone and not a particular someone it doesn't matter so much that there isn't a response.  However, I've not seen anyone on here for almost 2 months and I just don't have the motivation to keep at it by myself.  What is the point of sharing to an empty space?  The problem is that I have generally had some of the best scripture study since my mission, most days have been great.  I need to study to share but without the accountability I haven't been able to keep it up.  This week has seen a decline in my spiritual food.  Since this blog has worked I want to keep doing it but I need some support.  At minimum all I need is to see that someone has been looking at my posts, not every day just once a week.  To be honest I won't know if you've read it all or not, I would prefer you to read some of it but if you don't tell I won't even know.  Anything beyond a view such as a comment or your own posts is a bonus but unnecessary.  So I'm going to ask for some help via the phone.  I haven't had much success in this, oh people are well meaning but few have followed through and since I've been regular none have done so for very long.  I understand your lives are full of other things so if you really can't help me then I want to know.  But you are all family and this is part of what families are for, if I can't depend on m family then I what other mortal am I supposed to turn to?  So if you are able to help me then again all I need is to see that someone is viewing my posts.  I only need 5 mins of your time once a week whenever would work for you.  Put it on your calendar, set an alarm, save the blog front in an easy to access place.  Whatever works for you I just really need some help with this.